Uncertainty

Sometimes I wonder what is the difference between me and other people in terms of planning ones life? I've had friends who knew exactly what they wanted to do and when they wanted to do it. For instance, one of my friends wanted to become a doctor, get married, have kids and open a practice by the time she turned 30 and that is exactly how her life turned out. Another friend wanted to get married right after high school and that is exactly what happened. Even now I hear women say "oh I'll get married when I am 27, enjoy three years with my husband and have kids when I'm 30."

Now coming back to me, I had very similar dreams of going to college, getting a degree, working in my field, getting married and having kids. I also had a timeline sketched out and my life perfectly planned in detail. But in reality it did not work that way. I graduated from college two years later than I anticipated. Did not find a job right away. Got engaged to the wrong person and lived on my own for about four years. None of this was supposed to happen. By the time I was 29 I was supposed to be pregnant with my first child but I was just getting married. Now I am 33 and still do not have children due to complications and this endeavor may take a couple of more years.

So coming back to my point, what is the difference between me and other people? We both had timelines and goals. Where their goals unfolded exactly according to their timeline, my life has been full of uncertainty. Why is it that some people's wishes are granted exactly at the time they want and others have to wait to find happiness?

R